Letter to self

[author_by_night]

Okay, the original meme (gacked from keeperofqkeys ) was to write to your ten year old self, but I'd rather write to my fifteen year old self, because I think that's who I would have the most to say to. So....

 

 

Amy,

Well, you're fifteen, going on sixteen in a few days. Pretty amazing, huh? You survived your first year of HS - and you'll get through the rest of the years, too.

I wish I could say they'll all be wonderful, but you know what? They'll be horrible. You're going to see terrorism, find out your Mom has cancer, and your computer teacher is going to pick on you to the point where she implies there's something wrong with your intelligence, and you have to switch classes before you end up running out of class and getting suspended. Oh, and you're not going to feel any more welcome at school.... in fact, there'll be times where you feel very UNwelcome.

The best thing you can do, Amy, is hold on. Don't be afraid of bad times - some things can never be taken back, but other times, they can. And when they can't, there's ways to heal. And everything is a learning experience - you probably can't imagine it now, but you'll grow from it. And your Mom will be okay - she'll have to undergo radiation, and that's nasty, but she'll be healthier than ever, and that's what matters. As for the attack.. well, if I said that will turn out okay, I'd be insulting thousands of people. No, it won't get stopped; people are going to die, and there will be a war afterwards (although it won't be directly related). However... as scary as it seems, you'll be okay. It's still not over, but hang in there, and soon enough, it will be.

Now, about your self confidence. Shh - I know it's not as serious as terrorist attacks and illness, but it's still something that will affect you.

First, about how you're treated by other students (and, in one case, that teacher of doom)... it seems horrible, and it is. Adults who say it's as simple as rolling your eyes don't know what they're saying, because sometimes, there's a point where it's not simple. Of course, it is best to try that method first - and try not to give a reaction, no matter what. But if you have to tell someone to shut up, tell them. And feel free to vent - even talk to a teacher if you have to. Most of all, though, realize this: you'll end up going to college with one of them, and whenever you see her she'll have orange skin from tanning too much. Not to say it's laughable - it's not.

Also, realize that it's very possible people think *you're* stuck up. Try and talk more; doing so does wonders. I'm not saying it's easy - again, the theory that if you randomly walk up to someone and smile, they'll instantly befriend you for sure, is a theory that does not always work. However, if someone brushes you off, walk away from them and get on with your day.

As for your current friends... some'll come, some'll go, and some will stay the same. But you will get two friends that because everything you need in a friend. How, and online/offline? I'll leave it to you to find that out. But I will tell you this - follow your gut. And remember what I said before - if someone brushes you off, walk away, but if they don't, you likely will not regret giving them a chance.

HS will be rough, but you'll make it - a few bruises, yes, but even so, all you need to do is take your own advice.

Good luck,

Older Amy

Comments

[talimeeka.livejournal.com]

How, and online/offline? I'll leave it to you to find that out.
Some things are better left as a pleasant surprise.

*hugs*

[mysticblueside.livejournal.com]

*hugs* I almost cried. I swear. That was really interesting to read. *hugs again* I honestly don't know if I have the courage to write my younger self a letter. I'll have to think about it. ;) Hope everything's going well!

[story645.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Interesting. I can sympathise with having an evil teacher, *double hugs*

My english teacher had us write to our HS selves as if we were ten years older and to our 7 year old selves.

[auvergne.livejournal.com]

That's a really nice letter. I feel like writing to myself sometimes, too. No one knew what I needed then, especially not me.

P.S. I'm never on MSN anymore because I'm trying to break the habit.

[author-by-night.livejournal.com]

ah, okay... well, at least we can chat here. :)

[addy-62.livejournal.com]

That was a really good letter! ^_^ I'm really glad that your mom is okay! *hugs*

[author-by-night.livejournal.com]

Thanks! :)