So much that I made the first move. I've never done that before and it took such a lot of gumption or courage or whatever. And it seemed like he recipricated until the last minute when he cancelled on me. And then he blew off my second attempt without even a veneer of civility.
But it didn't stop me liking him. I knew I should. I knew it was unhealthy and never going to go anywhere. I knew I was wasting my time.
I tried again. I left it up to him to decide what, because he had shot down my previous ideas. And he shot me down again. And I was so hurt. But we were still friends, I thought. Until he started snapping at me whenever I was talking to people, telling me off for interrupting, even when it was him who interrupted me.
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timeasmymeasure
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Date: 2009-06-18 09:40 am (UTC)So much that I made the first move. I've never done that before and it took such a lot of gumption or courage or whatever. And it seemed like he recipricated until the last minute when he cancelled on me. And then he blew off my second attempt without even a veneer of civility.
But it didn't stop me liking him. I knew I should. I knew it was unhealthy and never going to go anywhere. I knew I was wasting my time.
I tried again. I left it up to him to decide what, because he had shot down my previous ideas. And he shot me down again. And I was so hurt. But we were still friends, I thought. Until he started snapping at me whenever I was talking to people, telling me off for interrupting, even when it was him who interrupted me.
I need to get out of here so badly it hurts.