Okay.

[author_by_night]

Tell me what to write, and I'll write it.

Writing stuff I actually like, showing stuff in an archive (and spendng all of my morning doing so) and stuff? Isn't working.

So, either I'm a crapastic writer and all my friends who say the opposite are just nice, or I'm not writing what everyone wants to read.

I don't want to be told I'm a wonderful writer. I just want recognition.

The archive... just one comment would've been nice. Something to know it was read. Anything.

But nothing. Nor other fic-related stuff I've posted.

Heck, I've linked some of my friends to fics, and do they get read? 

"OMG I'm sorry, I gotta go!" After five minutes, then nothing anymore.

All the time. And then, "I don't read anything good anymore." If it weren't all the time with every other person, I wouldn't take it so personally.

I don't know what anyone wants. Want me to write Harry/Draco porn? Harry/Snape? How about some Ron/Socks on the side?

I just feel... well, it's weird. "The sky is blue" can get sixteen comments, but anything related to my  fic writing, and everyone runs 87 different 
directions.

I don't know why I feel this way. I just... do. 

It's not really about the fic archive thing. It's about my fics in general.

I want to feel liked and accepted, I guess, and i feel like unless I write hot slashy porn, I won't be.

Maybe I'm in the wrong.